Why is it we always assume if its the hardest thing, the thing we most do NOT want to do, that it must be the very thing God is calling us to do? Is this just me? Do you feel it too? This pressure for pain, for total uncomfortableness and MISERY–at least initially, until God somehow helps us love the very thing we were once most loathe to do.
Maybe that’s sometimes the case. But maybe it’s not always…?
Early on, when I used to consider mission work, I always had this fear God would send me to Africa. Or Thailand, or someplace just REALLY hot. I don’t do heat well–it makes me crabby and exhausted–and being pale and freckled, the sun is usually very unkind to me. But I figured if I had someplace in my head where I just DID NOT want to go, that would, of course, be exactly where he would send me. Because he wanted to stretch me and make me uncomfortable, and that, in short, required my misery.
But since then I’ve realized an important truth: God desires FULLY SURRENDERED hearts. Hearts that desire Him and His glory more than self and self glory/comfort. If your love for Him is greater than the fear for where he might take you, or the desires you might have for your future, then you are in a good place.
The great George Mueller once said “I seek at the beginning to get my heart into such a state that it has no will of its own in regard to a given matter. Nine-tenths of the trouble with people generally is just there. Nine-tenths of the difficulties are overcome when our hearts are ready to do the knowledge of what His will is.”
Even if that means Africa or someplace that initially seems very awful.
Where is your heart? Is it surrendered? FULLY surrendered?